SAS Australia 2021 star Erin Holland has shared her heartbreaking journey as she begins IVF treatment.

The television sports presenter took to Instagram on Tuesday with a teary selfie to confess that this time in her life hasn’t been easy on her and cricketer husband, Ben Cutting.

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Erin Holland has revealed that she and husband Ben Cutting have started their IVF journey. Source: Instagram @erinvholland.

“Last year, we found out the only real option to have a baby for me is IVF,” she penned to her followers.

“As someone who went in just wanting to freeze embryos until the time was ‘right’, I’ve grappled with the confusing feelings of the loss of any ‘normality’ of this process, feeling like the universe was telling me I’m not meant to be a mother, the guilt of letting Ben down, the ‘but am I even ready’ thoughts, feeling physically broken.”

The 33-year-old went on the explain that they recently found out that their first round of treatment “resulted in nothing viable”.

“The sense of failure is overwhelming,” Erin said candidly. “The toll on the mind and body, the injections, the cost.”

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Erin explained how “confusing” her experience has been. Source: Instagram @erinvholland.

Adding that she’s “so grateful for modern medicine”, the former Miss World Australia confessed that “the fact that IVF is even a possibility blows [her] mind”.

Erin then concluded by sharing her hopes that her experience validates those of others going on a similar journey.

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Erin Holland Shares Her SAS Australia Injuries

During her time on the Special Forces reality series in 2021, Erin endured injuries en masse, which she later shared online.

“THE AFTERMATH,” the model-turned-TV presenter wrote alongside images of herself covered in head-to-toe bruises.

“A raw look at what a few days of selection looked like (plus a sore back from 90+ kilos on it),” she penned on Instagram, referring to when Ant Middleton forced her to carry Home and Away actor Dan Ewing on her shoulders around the course’s parade square.

Erin also noted in the post that there are “so many tasks that can’t possibly all make it to air”, and we can’t even begin to imagine what else the contestants are made to endure that leaves them so battered and bruised!

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